this is new..

hey

2011-02-19T03:31:00.000+08:00

I think I will stop using blogger. If you guys still wanna read my posts check out http://mencarutsikit.tumblr.com

Dari belakang

2011-01-28T03:02:00.001+08:00

Tidak berakhir dengan angan-angan basah

Mahu aku melihat diriku di hujung kisah

tidak perlu peduli akan adat yang memisah

keluh bodoh hanya dari hati patah

kan ada yang lebih hakiki

kisah kecil pun dibawa mati

bukan mahu lupa

hanya mahu ada

Soal Langit

2010-07-21T00:17:00.001+08:00

di mana padang mu?
di mana petang itu?
di mana gadis itu?
berbaringkah dia disampingmu?
adakah satu pun lirik yang bertulis?
adakah gitar disentuh jari halus?

tersenyumkah dia melirik kamu?
paling paling tidak tersenyumkah kamu?

Pagar

2010-07-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

Ke kiri pandangan makin suram
barangkali selalu hadirnya malam
kanan juga jangan disangka terang
banyak sangka membawa kamu berang

pagar masih tegar
tiada siapa memapar
pagar masih tegar

si cantik selalu tertarik?
itu kamu yang pekik
hakikatnya jelik
sebenarnya kamu tak molek

Girl

2010-07-06T23:01:00.003+08:00

I need You and Me
to just let others see
I wish you would
maybe we could

this is not a tale of boy meets girl
I've been that boy
and won't let you be that girl
It is about us
of what we confess
without proper manifest

i know you dont have to remind me

2010-05-30T20:31:00.002+08:00

Love is God's work
Luck as many mortals believe on how it could spark
thus, no matter how fitting you are in the cast of someone's dream
if it is not written we would react with " no luck"

Love is in no sense ever formulated
it comes to you
stay maybe for a while
or like in great tales remains till you're one with the earth you sow your seeds on

Love has no defining callings
it comes in the least amount of effort
it comes in the most demanding of strive
say you ' i like you' Love may respond with a slight cold
or just be coy and love will respond with a mountain of yes-es

so why be bothered
it has its own time
you cannot make it come to you like you call out to your cat
so why be bothered?

because we got hopes clinging all over our shoulders
that is what made us do what we always do in the chase
we all knew how to deal with it theoretically
but hope does big differences as you hurdles through this mystery plot

Meal

2010-05-30T18:18:00.000+08:00

I sit and eat for You
Chewing lightly chew by chew
munching bit by bit
spoon and fork do their bid
then wipe my mouth from crumbs and grease
to thank my Lord and I am pleased
and if i belched again i see
Alhamdulillah praise to Thee

no title

2010-05-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

You asked on where I had been gone

places and faces my eyes had ventured

that my action of solitude is not a wise one

You said i need a woman with me on my bed

not that I am fond of being alone

just that i'm tired of winning the hearts

of the ones whom can't be with me

JUAL MAHAL??? kenapa jual mahal amad emi? adakah sebab kita penah ada history dan aku telah set benchmark yg sgt tinggi lalu kau menjual mahal sekarang? hahaha wiu wiu wiu~

2010-05-11T17:03:00.001+08:00

boooo~~ zooey deschannel yang dah set benchmark tuh ha ha

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sape kawan sejati anda?hehehehe

2010-05-11T00:10:00.001+08:00

kawan sejati saya adalah azhari sirat hahaha. ko mesti rindukan aku kan? hahaha

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mengarut tentang kekecewaan dalam bahase penjajah. haha bodo

2010-05-09T04:26:00.000+08:00

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin coffee and cigarette and not talking

2 hours ago · Comment · Like / Unlike · View feedback (16)Hide feedback (16)Azhari Siratoi macam down jek.mohla kite story mory.hahaha
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Azleman Bin Kamin...then start contemplating on past mistakes that in a way shaped the "you" at this particular moment. Now. another coffee please sir.
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Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddini know the 'me' that is now is a product of my frank utterance of love. haha. im laughing but im dead serious.
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Fadzreeq Moktirelax and enjoy every sip of your coffee with less regret of what happens...shit does happen, sabar je la...
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Azhari Siratthe fact of the matter is that the "me" inside of you is merely a reflection of a total eclipse in which predispose the entire life experience experienced by you and yourself alone.in the end "me" will naturally lead you to become the cultured entity that you have destined to be.....I'll take that sip of coffee as to show you my gratitude sir.thanks.
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Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddindear sir, i do believe in learning experiences. but the matter of fact is that there is only one of her and even the slightest particle excluded from the 'her' it wouldnt be 'her' after all wouldnt it? I do venture my eyes upon others but what would that meant? a substitute for God's masterpiece upon my eyes? how i wish i were a young fool back then without any attached feelings to someone that is not even mine. I salute to your view sir and with that i take another sip.
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Azhari SiratNay!owh dear good sir.I beg to differ though your view is absolutely spotted. but why "her" be or perceived as the only one when there are thousands of whispering eyes, I see gazing naively upon you, ready to offer such wonderful bargain and possibilities?why not move on and accept that "her" is only part of your mystical experiences and by your ... Read moreown right sir, you shall not linger in the past no more. mercy for my insolence sir. I shall be more in control if my words seem to be harsher than my noble intention.
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Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddinlewd naive whispering eyes I seek not. I stumbled upon her during my clearest vision. Not smeared with any lust nor imagination. That is why a big of a deal is ventured upon her and there is only one of her and that made me weary of defeat. I say, have you not felt love sir? or even a single interest in diving into the depth of it? When you gaze your eyes upon the 'her' you wanted you will know of the weariness that I am humming.
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Mohd IzuddinExcuse me my dear sir, can you pass that skinny latte please.

I'm utterly sorry for my late arrival.
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Azhari Siratowh excuse yourself sir.be a gent and explore the delicacies as you wish
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Azhari Siratand now where were we?owh sir pardon me for taking light of what you cruelly suffer presently. Indeed I have once dived into the darkness of a broken heart and swam cold into the mysterious world we called love sir.I must say it was unpleasant experience on my part. but sir, know that a humming bird will forever be a humming bird.carefree and ... Read moreunbound to any such entrapment you are currently facing. is there not a single voice in your heart wanting of the same?or you just ready to retreat aimlessly to this unsolved heartache caused by the very "her" that wishes to remain in silence?
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Ahmad Helmi ShaharuddinI dont blame the very charming 'her' for my tumble. I blame my ludicrous act of uttering my interest even before we have a chance of proper courtships. pure remorse. If only i could turn back time and only watch her from a distance. admiring without a heavy heart. saying in my heart "that is an angel at a distance there you'll have your chance to meet her in heaven". so pathetic i sounded yet i felt good uttering them. I apologize for my weak nature.
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Azleman Bin Kaminwell dear gents, the act of exercising our "minds" in the name of gratitude serve the purpose of why we are called human and for to further to defeat such purpose is to; like what you dear sir are eclipsing the real "you" by bring forth the "animated" being puppeteer by the hand of those who are insolent!! Arise and march but the again, pour more than usual will you, i insist.
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Azhari Siratnow hold on noble sir for your accusation of being weakness is respectfully declined by me. I see not of the same view as yours for I understand the nature beseth gracefully in your characters. weak you not sir but blame it perhaps on the love itself. all my life I have seen noblemen and warriors fell down for not because they were weak but love ... Read moresir.the sin of love is so damned treacherous that we shall forever be cursed for being too honest and angelic towards our female counterpart.

now hold there my governor. do pour me that fine coffee please.I really need to quench my thirst now.go on sir...I'll listen.
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Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddinwell good companies you all are good friends.It is not in our nature to pour our hearts about love. well gentlemen you had heard enough of my stories and if you were listening from the very beginning that is how much it hurts. love and interest are ironic in their own display. they are supposedly the bridge to happiness but bridges do tremble and fall apart and lead us to our woes. The more we chatter the more sublime these coffee seems to be. do have more sir.
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Azhari Siratwell articulate on your behalf sir.no words can describe me of my concern over you sir but indeed a small conversation like this can simply be the best medicine. I assure you that we are all in the same boat and nothing in this world can understand how much pain are you bearing upon your shoulder but true to my intention, we are here for you always.now pass me that majestic looking blueberry scone over there...
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How to cry. shamelessly

2010-05-08T17:04:00.000+08:00

if shame bounds you from crying in the open
try crying in the rain
and if you stutter and your smile has failed
just blame the rain for being too cold

tensen

2010-04-28T01:51:00.000+08:00

aku tensen arini. so aku gi carik gado. sori la sesape yang kene peninju dan kerajang berapi tadi

ha ha bodo.

Kamu tahu

2010-04-25T03:35:00.000+08:00

dengarkan kamu cerita tentang dia
buat aku tersenyum fikirkan bahagia
tentang baiknya aku di tempat itu
pada bila sedar sendiri aku termalu
kerana aku bukan beruntung seperti dia
hanya diteduh sementara perlu ada
hanya disanjung sebelum kamu dicari dia
kisahnya tentang kita hanya aku yang rasa

Perempuan mcm mana awak suka? Yang lantang atau yang pendiam?

2010-04-21T18:30:00.001+08:00

tadek masalah la diam ke lantang. chemistry lagi penting. kan?

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awak rasa best tak kalau saya mengorat awak? btw,saya model danau kota tersebut

2010-04-21T17:18:00.001+08:00

wahahaha saye tamauuuu~~~ dgr cite ade shooting cancel? wahahahaha

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Awak suka perempuan yang adventurous tak? Kalau ya, adventurous yg macam mana?

2010-04-19T23:50:00.001+08:00

suka. yang suka yang terer backpack yeay bawak sayeee

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di mana cantiknya seorang perempuan?

2010-04-18T04:59:00.001+08:00

cantiknya seorang perempuan
pada senyum. pada mata. pada bahu. sila jgn tanya kenapa haha

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awak rasa lelaki malaysia berkualiti?

2010-04-17T19:33:00.001+08:00

saya tak rase saya ada jawapan untuk itu. sebab bagi saya kualiti lebih tepat dikaitkan dengan individu daripada dikaitkan dengan kumpulan bangsa atau kulit. lelaki malaysia ada yang pandai ade yang budiman ade yang bodoh ade yang biadap.

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Kenapa malu nak mengaku bila hati dah suka?

2010-04-15T16:51:00.001+08:00

common sense mengatakan bahawa kalau saye suka tak tentu orang tu suka gak. tebabomm

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Do u believe in parallel universe? If yes, which one do you want to meet; Your child-self, teenage-self or older-self? What are you going to say if you meet one of them?

2010-04-14T11:44:00.001+08:00

i dunno, if it does exists i want to meet myself as a child and older self.

to my child self i would like to say: the girl that sat next to you in standard 1 may be mean and always hiding your color pencils. please be patient and dont make her hate you by getting back at her bcause she is so freaking damn hot now haha.

to my cranky older self i would say "sorry mannn dragging into this.. ha ha. so hows life working in the IT business? yeah what the fuck am i thinking right?"

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awak boleh tak kapel dengan kawan rapat awk sendiri? ke rasa pelik?

2010-04-12T20:57:00.001+08:00

bolehh jekkk. kan manusia gak ahaha gile desperate bunyinye. tapi seriously one of my ex before this is one of my closest friend. and even tho things didnt work out the way we hoped it would be, we're still best of friends. i dunno, its normal for me at least.

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wat does a man sees n a girl? dia nampak perempuan tuh hidung mancung.bibir penuh. mata peghh mencairkan.. or trus je cari yg mmg cantik..s in..kurus,putih,and blablabla...

2010-04-12T18:55:00.001+08:00

saye carik yang lucu hahaha. cantik tu mmg tempting tapi kalau dah beberape ketika tu baru nampak ape yang menariknye ape yang tidak. oh ya cantik dan sangat annoying memang wujud. jadi secara jujurnye saye pilih untuk tgk rupa dulu juga, kalau cantik DI MATA SAYE pastu borak2 kenal2 dan kalo best jek saye tertarik la. aci tak? ahaha. gadis mmg la kite nampak muka dulu kan? melainkan kite borak ngan die sambil die pakai beg kertas kat kepala. jawapan ini sangat panjang. saye kagum. ha ha

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kenapa belum berpunya? memilih eh? ke menunggu? :D

2010-04-12T17:48:00.003+08:00

entah lah. tersekat kot. haha

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dinosaur or mammoth?

2010-04-12T17:48:00.001+08:00

mammoth

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You dengan Tini Rahim pernah ada sejarah kew? Rapat semacam jers...

2010-04-12T17:47:00.001+08:00

hoih siape yang buat lawak taip gaya remaja geli masakini nihhh? ahahahahahhhh. aku teka ye.. hmm ko sorang mamat yang kurus2 ade janggut2 jambang2 yang slalu merungut rimas ngan bulu muka kan? hahah general sungguh deskripsi. haha. cerita i dgn tini rahim dah berlalu. jgn la diungkit. no komen. saya harap dia hepi ha ha

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would you like to be my friend...hahah..^^

2010-04-12T14:05:00.001+08:00

hahah sape ni??? macam kenal jek simbol "^^" tuh

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awk da berpunya ke belum ?? :)

2010-04-11T23:26:00.001+08:00

huk~ ha ha ha belum lagi

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U suka baca blog siapa? Apa inspirasi u tulis lagu and puisi?

2010-04-11T02:23:00.001+08:00

blog kawan2 rapat. lagu n puisi are merely a reflection of people around me and myself :)

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kau tulis lagu sebab trend sekarang semua nak tulis lagu sendiri atau kau memang tau direction kau dalam muzik?

2010-04-10T00:53:00.001+08:00

aku tatau apape ahahahah. trend ke? aku tulis jek ape aku nak tulis. salah satu cara meluahkan isi hati. kalau ko tgk lagu2 tu pun bukan ade genre yang tetap

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fallen lines

2010-04-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

picture perfect in the eyes of angels
the feelings of a mortal towards another
of being so near with little space for thrills
of saying señora i love you but don't bother

as for i have not prayed for this
of falling for someone else's
as for i cant hold back this hints
so sorry that my heart longs for this

1 tambah 1 tolak 1000 000.. berapakah anak itik di bawah rumah saya?

2010-04-06T15:02:00.001+08:00

bergantung kepada berapa rakus si babak itik ahaha

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saya comey x? :P

2010-04-04T20:20:00.001+08:00

saya tu sape? kalau saya memang comel hahaha

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gibberish

2010-04-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

26 years old
a job
a friend
chemistry
that is limited
shitty

what kind of girl are you looking for?

2010-04-03T00:53:00.001+08:00

hmm sense of humor, not too clingy. decisive. but ummm.. im not looking. im waiting haha

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formspring.me

2010-04-02T23:31:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/AmadEmi

the other

2010-03-30T01:59:00.000+08:00

Insignificant attempt on happiness
Improper way to cut in
Unjustified feelings
Unknown circumstances

again. found her
and she is with another
yet again

She's gone

2010-03-15T00:57:00.003+08:00

She's gone with my hope
bringing with her my heart in progress
dumped it along the slope
bitter end of our half finished manifest

She's gone with those things
the photos that were never taken
the fireflies that we never visited
the promises left unkept

She's gone
the only trace of her
left in the part of my heart
when ventured
it hurts the most

Berkatalah saya

2010-02-03T21:53:00.001+08:00

Sedangkan daun kering ku anggap indah,

inikan pula yang dipuji tak sudah,

sedangkan titis hujan jatuh boleh aku terhibur,

inikan pula yang telatah comel sehingga aku tak tidur.

tiada tajuk

2010-02-01T23:38:00.001+08:00

tak guna menulis
jika bahan apinya sekadar harapan

tak guna menulis
jika intipatinya tentang kemahuan
atau kegusaran atau kekecewaan

penulis dulu sudah lama tiada
pergi mencari pelangi yang membohong
pelangi yang membohong,

tidak lagi ada bentuk pengalaman atau nasihat
atau apa yang dipikirnya benar,
sekadar menulis tentang mahunya dia
cantiknya dia

apa guna kamu baca?

Just another doodle

2010-01-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

Kentut

2010-01-25T16:29:00.001+08:00

21 letters and goodbyes

2010-01-25T13:02:00.002+08:00

Rub your eyes a little harder
see how reality treats you
when you finally found a temporary shelter

21 letters and goodbyes
broken hearts that we mend
21 letters and goodbyes
we break it once more then
just to stay awake

play the records that we made
till nothing else seems to matter
can you dedicate this last piece for me

21 letters and goodbyes
the one we wrote from monday blunder
21 letters and goodbyes
the one we laughed off with tears

from silly jokes
from silly jokes
from silly jokes

sebenarnye

2010-01-25T11:13:00.003+08:00

konon-konon cool. tapi tengah lukis gamba ni. ha ha ha ha

gadis yang tak wujud

2010-01-25T01:17:00.001+08:00

Saya janji, susah macam mana pun saya mesti baring dekat padang pandang langit sama-sama dengan awak. gadis yang tak wujud-wujud lagi. Sambil tu kita ambil gambar. kita tulis lirik tulis lagu. kita pandang langit senyum je. Awak pegang janji tu ye gadis yang tak wujud lagi?

Budak perasan

2010-01-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

saye dah terapung tinggi-tinggi ni. kalau jatuh sakit jugak :) ni la tujuannye blog ni private buat mase ni. fiuh~

dan kalau saya sakit ya Allah, tolong la pandu hati saye *ameen* :)

imaginary stick

2009-12-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

Fact is what you read from my fictions
Fictions I did substitute with intangible facts
What I spelled true are hidden in lines
What seemed not worth hearing are solidly stressed
so your ears can't capture
hoping your heart would
poking you with an imaginary stick

Dear friends...

2009-12-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

These days I feel that what i write is no longer relevant to a broad group of people nor it contributed anything to the life of people around me. I am afraid that what i would post in the near future will sound too personal it would make people judge or conclude to something that is not true. so here i am announcing the closure of nopenthistime to the public. dear friends, if you wish to continue follow this blog, do email me at helmishaharuddin@gmail.com i will invite each of you personally. This blog will be closed to public starting 28th December 2009. with that i bid thanks to you small crowd who had been very keen in visiting this blog of mine. I am not sure whether this is going to be permanent or temporary. but yea goodbye for now.

Thanks and Best regards,
Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin

...

2009-12-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

saya dah habis peluru.

Saya budak perasan

2009-12-15T00:41:00.001+08:00

Bulan terang bintang terang

aku duduk berseorangan

aku tuding dekat bintang

tak ada ulasan yang datang

sejuk malam dan bau rumput

aku duduk keseorangan

kuis lantai kayu yang reput

tak ada akal untuk berangan

entah bila dia nak datang

sudah hampir sejuk teh kosong

tak ada apa nak ditayang

melainkan hati yang rompong

elok benar kalau dia tahu

lubang dekat hati ini dia yang potong

Pusat

2009-12-11T03:54:00.000+08:00

Aku masih di sini

bas tadika ku
sekolah rendah ku
sekolah menengah ku
tempat kuliah ku
dua kekasih lampau ku

mau angkat punggung yang melekat
tapi benda baru datang menyekat
cerita baru di tempat hela ku

di sini magnet di mana pusatnya rupanya aku
bukan bas bukan sekolah bukan kuliah
terutama sekali bukan bekas kekasih.

kucing, pungguk, pisang, dan buah pinang

2009-12-10T03:45:00.000+08:00

Saya mahu bawak awak jalan-jalan
cari kucing yang bertanduk dua
cari pungguk yang dah tak rindukan bulan
makan pisang yang berbuah kali kedua

kita belah dua pinang jadi tak sepadan
jalan sama-sama tambah satu lagi kenalan?

yang benar :peminat honeyboney :D

Wasiat para penulis

2009-12-08T00:41:00.001+08:00

keluh kesah marah parah
deme kata kamu betul
keluh kesah marah parah
kamu singgung bilang sasul

keluh kesah marah parah
pandu kamu nafsu deme
keluh kesah marah parah
tak benar wujud neraka?

keluh kesah marah parah
kami tegur deme maki
keluh kesah marah parah
suruh fikir cari onar

keluh kesah marah parah
keluh kesah marah parah
keluh kesah marah parah

Universal Balance

2009-12-01T16:15:00.003+08:00

On a verge of happiness
That I fell in front of your feet
On a verge of trust
I saw you turning your back at me
On a verge of smiling bright
You squashed a lemon in my drink

Umur tujuh tahun

2009-11-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

Terkuis-kuis pasir
Terpintal-pintal baju
Kusut-masai rambut disisir
Bedak dipakai nampak berdebu

Umur tujuh tahun
Gigi pun berselang-seli
Tok mudim pun masih gerun
Sudah pandai bilang jatuh hati

The Last Bid

2009-11-29T04:00:00.001+08:00

I am on a sinking ship enjoying my last view
A note in my hand written on sunny breakfast
How I wish that this blue penned note will reach you
Even though I know you left me in utter disgust

These last words I know will not substitute
The rightful apology that I must bid to you
I cannot blame your option of being mute
Because of the effort I took were only a few

I wish to tell that even on this fateful day
That it had never changed and I Love You So

Ini betul-betul

2009-11-25T15:05:00.001+08:00

Cermin tersenyum,
betul
Cermin tersenyum,

Matahari saja-saja
terbit cepat-cepat,

Kereta pun senyap-senyap
panaskan enjin sendiri,

Lampu isyarat tu
saja-saja jadi merah lama-lama,

Baju-baju dekat butik
semua cuba tarik perhatian awak,

Sebab tak sabar nak jumpe awak
semua kata awak cantik,

Betul,
ini bukan main-main,

Awak cantik.

Superficial me

2009-11-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

Beautiful stranger
smiled at me
made me linger
thinking of what you see

what is it that you see
beautiful stranger
in my empty chamber
is there something that i didn't see?

I am standing here with nothing more
than a ten ringgit note and two cold feet

Contrastive analysis

2009-11-02T02:56:00.001+08:00

Don't love this guy he is too slow
he says hello and engage you in pointless conversations
don't love this guy he is too slow
he thinks to much of how worthy he is because you made more
don't love this guy he is too slow
he took months before he text you and months more before he has the courage to call you
don't love this guy he is too slow
he learns about your interests and took little time to talk about his
don't love this guy he is too slow
he took too long to check on you after you left for someone else who is in turn broken your heart

Don't love this guy he is too fast
he says hello and says he likes you
don't love this guy he is too fast
he asked you out in advance even before he knows when
don't love this guy he is too fast
because he hate how slow he was back then

don't love this guy he is always in time?
maybe there's no thrill with someone who always knows
no space for surprises and nothing to assume

Kalau kau sama menanti

2009-10-08T00:48:00.001+08:00

Aku

menanti bulan hilang makna

menanti warna jadi sama

menanti kata jadi buku

menanti kamu melihat aku

Hopes and Fears

2009-10-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

Joy and sorrows anew,
Will the sun be rising soon?
Say prayers I did a few,
Will God take me closer soon?

A man who reads poems
will also be judging me too,
With that I cannot affirm,
Of what to tell beneath my stool

Of hopes that linger came back
Of songs that are written in black.

Dilemma of a beloved

2009-09-23T02:26:00.000+08:00

Please good sir!
i have tried to evade you in the best possible ways possible
i tried tolerating your attempts and hope we can be friends
but now I'm afraid you seemed to be too persistent
I just wanted you too understand
even though you did all the right stuff from end to end
if it is not mutual we are not meant to be

Please good sir!
dont waste your mind on me and dont think too much
I aint't worth a single line of your poems
nor benefits a single stroke of your drawing pen
draw your creative attempts to something worth sharing to the world
you'll just hurt yourself being the only one understanding your lines
same goes to your strokes

Please good sir!
I dont know how you feel
true. i dont have the slight intention of experiencing any of them
you only knew that you wanted me
without the slightest concern of the many things that is going on in my life
please good sir, I dont need this right now.

things cut short

2009-09-03T12:25:00.001+08:00

you
me
a decent conversation

i
wish i had never confessed

you
dont be silent

you
me
dont really know each other

you
need to say hi

i
need to cool down

Tawa, hati dan akal

2009-09-03T00:43:00.001+08:00

Lafasnya manusia tidak mahu tertawa lagi

apa katanya datuk dulu jika tawa gantinya duka?

bukan hanya lumrah ia satu olakan

biar kamu mahu menangis datangnya tawa tidak juga diundang

Sampai mati tidak boleh kamu pandu hati kamu

adanya akal juga tidak dapat menipu hati yang berkata

selagi rajin tawa bertandang ada harapan di akhir jalan

jangan lemah walau hati sememangnya begitu

akal tidak mengawal hati adapun tidak

akal bawa teguran supaya ada sedikit kamu berfikir

selagi tawa tidak kosong jadi jemputlah ia di dedaunan kamu

tidaklah bodoh kiranya mencari suka

Smells like thin seaweed

2009-08-26T03:34:00.001+08:00

Slim wrinkly dry

that's the chance I am longing for

soak it and maybe we will see

how much it gain and your eyes could see

les miserables

2009-08-15T01:47:00.001+08:00

there.
done.
i just pulled the plug from my iron lung miss

anything else?

you want my heart to take away with that?
that would be 25 cents please.

I know you don't have to remind me

2009-08-11T18:55:00.001+08:00

To my private doctor

2009-07-06T17:33:00.001+08:00

Doc give me shots of anesthetics
can You make it last till I'm over this matter?
i want it last untill i have no remembrance of this awe
of places and things i never believe i could go and own

Doc please i had done my share
now its your turn to get me high
as i speak i am praying towards Your greatness
just let me have Your anesthetics

Doc i believe in Your rules
you want me to at least show my effort
i did just that, so Doc please let me have your anesthetics
i know what i want and i did asked for it
so Doc if it is not for me please give me huge doses of anesthetics

Tidur mahu saya bangun

2009-07-03T16:29:00.001+08:00

Saya mahu bangun tidur
bangun tidur
saya mahu
tidur saya mahu bangun

Saya bangun saya tidur
Mahu tidur mahu saya
bangun mahu tidur bangun
bangun, tidur mahu bangun

you're like crayons in my backpack

2009-06-17T10:43:00.001+08:00

you're like crayons in my backpack
where i kept with my box of graphites and my yellowish sketchpad

I wont be jealous of graphites
yes I use them frequently

but

they dont give me colors and i cant relate

i seldom use you,

that's because I'm yet to fully learn you
that's because i don't want to waste you with my incompetencies
that's because I want to make sure when you are all used up
I end up with a masterpiece

morning skies

2009-06-16T13:16:00.001+08:00

light my skin will you
i need something to get me up today
slow and slumber will not do because i need something
will you light my skin

i shouldn't have have put a lot of weight in my arms
i shouldn't have put tiny pieces of you in my heart

I'm leaving this cold place and I'm getting up don't get mad and
so be it if you, if you wanted to stay in the cold
because i finally see now how pathetic it seems to chain my heart
for something in doubt where no one knows

i shouldn't have have put a lot of weight in my arms
i shouldn't have put tiny pieces of you in my heart

it don't matter where i go from this journey
because change is all i need
so its final i can't stay any longer
and by dawn I'll be gone

sitting by the sump

2009-06-03T12:01:00.000+08:00

sitting here hearing your thoughts

sum of all eagerness

sun high by all means

Kissed

2009-04-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

the sky kissed me tonight
countless times
tiny kisses

she said tomorrow will be okay
i gazed upon her she kissed me again
tiny kisses

puisi carut

2009-04-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin will smoke on a larger scale and swear as often as possible

21:36 · Comment · Like

Yau Sim Mei, Hanna Farhana and Fara Fatihah Ibrahim like this.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 21:43 on 12 April

thanks. and i mean it..huhuh..

Azhari Sirat at 22:15 on 12 April

hoyeaah!!aku setuju.PAnteeeekkkkkk!!!!!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:18 on 12 April

huh tak kreatif. tgk makian aku ni. celah kangkang berpeluh!!!!

Azhari Sirat at 22:19 on 12 April

cis!!!durian tahi.amek ko!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:20 on 12 April

hmph. berak unta! ade brani?

Azhari Sirat at 22:22 on 12 April

unta buret sakit kepale!!!!piuuuunnng(bunyik pistol)

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:26 on 12 April

beruang garuk jubo! bom bom cha!

Azhari Sirat at 22:27 on 12 April

telor babi tarian singa!!!vroooommm...

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:29 on 12 April

kulit telor orang kerdil!! celap celap!

Azhari Sirat at 22:31 on 12 April

orang bute kencing shuffle!!!!woooosssshhh.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:33 on 12 April

kondom maideen baru pas guna!! snap!

Azhari Sirat at 22:35 on 12 April

g-string Idris bersalut kemproh!!!!eeeewwwww~

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:39 on 12 April

pi'e korek idung calit bawah meja!! ko dtg terselet
!

Yau Sim Mei at 22:44 on 12 April

I like! I like! I like! Sing some more. So funny! Bring in all the animals and their telors.

Azhari Sirat at 22:45 on 12 April

meletak lidah dicelah pipi kiri kanan punngung!!!!!syaaaabaaaasss!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:47 on 12 April

laga telor untuk hidupkan api! hadus senak

Azhari Sirat at 22:49 on 12 April

merathon keroncong menggunakan mikrofon kerandut wak!!!ee'ah!ee'ahhhh!

Hanna Farhana at 22:51 on 12 April

omg. thats porn.. haha

Yau Sim Mei at 22:52 on 12 April

Aiyoh! Telor sudah pecah! Telor sudah pecah! TOLONG! TOLONG! Api sudah kena punggung Azhari! Tolong!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:52 on 12 April

sedut lendir hidung, ludah mulut kawan!!!

Azhari Sirat at 22:54 on 12 April

razif sidek smash buah dada kucing friskies!!!adoi!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 22:55 on 12 April

karam singh walia garu telur tak ketip kuku!!!

Azhari Sirat at 22:58 on 12 April

ruminah sidek menari agogo tak pakai spenda sambil moonwalk~

Yau Sim Mei at 22:59 on 12 April

Yes! Yes! This is ultimate, disgusting, porn... but it's so creative! Eh boys, gunalah spare parts seperti spannar, playar, tukul, pembaris-T, sesiku dan sebagainya. Manila kad pun boleh.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:03 on 12 April

amik gambar ngan azizah mahzan terpegang payudara!!!

Yau Sim Mei at 23:06 on 12 April

HAHAHAHAHA!!! Hehehehehe!!! Gua sudah mau mati ketawa!

Azhari Sirat at 23:07 on 12 April

picit telor orang utan guna playar sampai kempis!!! kak mei!!!ini untuk anda(bergaya kesatria hitam)

Awyn Awin at 23:08 on 12 April

bodo..~

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:11 on 12 April

berlari maraton sambil diikat bulu jembut bersama!!

Yau Sim Mei at 23:13 on 12 April

HaaaaaahahaHAHAHAHA~~~~~~ Tolong! Tolong! Telor orang utan sudah pecah! Helmiiiiiiiii... tolong gam balik itu telor.

Azhari Sirat at 23:13 on 12 April

lumur halia pada buasir!!!hnssss...pedas.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:14 on 12 April

dua bisul bergesel di celah dubur!!!!!!! ouch!

Azhari Sirat at 23:16 on 12 April

titik muntah maggi tomyam pada mata~~~alaaahaai.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:17 on 12 April

kencing kat lubang telinga!!!

Azhari Sirat at 23:20 on 12 April

gesel kad raya halus pada celahan telor dengan laju!!!shwwaaaappp!!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:22 on 12 April

scan kulit telor wat poskad!!!

Yau Sim Mei at 23:25 on 12 April

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA!!!! OMG!!!

Azhari Sirat at 23:26 on 12 April

Samy veloo ciom molot misbun sidek!!!tebabooow!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:29 on 12 April

acappan pulas puting sendiri sambil mengerang!!!

Azhari Sirat at 23:31 on 12 April

tali gitar paling halus putus terkena puting condoleeza rice!Owwh shit man~

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:34 on 12 April

ingatkan bunyi biola rupanya thaksin tgh tonggeng sambil kentut!!!!!!!!! nyiiiiiiiiIIIIiiiiit~~~

Azhari Sirat at 23:37 on 12 April

GusDur belit telor sambil Margaret Thatcher menari poco-poco!!!dusyuuuummmm!!*

Yau Sim Mei at 23:40 on 12 April

SAkiiiiiiiiiiiiiit! kesian!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:40 on 12 April

picit jerawat masuk dalam lubang pusat!!!!!

Azhari Sirat at 23:44 on 12 April

jumpa tahi dalam masakan mamak, mamak angkat tangan tunjuk isyarat bagus!!!nyumnyum~

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:47 on 12 April

mimpi basah ngan maya karin, bangun pagi tgh cium molot ngan nik khairul adli!!!!! euwww~w~

Nik Khairul Adli at 23:50 on 12 April

BODOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Apahalll ader kena mengena ngan aku laks!!!!!

Azhari Sirat at 23:51 on 12 April

ulat gonggok menyelinap masuk ke lubang dubur, said di hujung tersenyum gembira~siyoooooottt jek.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:51 on 12 April

hahaha ko kan selebriti

Azhari Sirat at 23:53 on 12 April

clap...clap..clap...tahniah nik!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:56 on 12 April

aku vote terpegang payudara azizah mahzan yang paling lucu haha

Azhari Sirat at 23:58 on 12 April

aku suke kondom maideen dengan g-string idris.ahahaha!

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 23:59 on 12 April

tahi dalam masakan mamak juga lucu hahahaha

Azhari Sirat at 00:01 on 13 April

ahahaha...sebenarnya itu adalah tahi beliau.ia adalah disengajakan.pasal acappan tuh sangat tak disangka.wahaha.

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin at 00:02 on 13 April

aku rasa maki makian ni patu diabadikan

Azhari Sirat at 00:04 on 13 April

betol...sangat penting dimasa hadapan.

Yau Sim Mei at 00:31 on 13 April

Now there's three of you - Helmi, Azhari and Nik! Phewwit! Crowded! I vote yg paling best is "tali gitar paling halus putus terkena puting condoleeza rice!Owwh shit man~".

Simpan

2009-04-10T15:18:00.001+08:00

ku simpan gentar ini demi malu

ku tunjal dahi ini demi kamu

ku kuis pasir ke atas rindu ini kerna ragu

apa bisik hatimu tentang aku

makin haus

masih, sedikit demi sedikit aku hirup

tidak berani aku teguk hingga habis

kerana air itu mungkin bukan milikku

Langit

2009-03-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

langit
aku mau melukis kamu
warna warna kamu
gurauan kamu dengan cahaya

langit

mengapa berubah
duduk diam
aku mau melukis rupamu
berhenti aku mau melukismu
seluruhnya aku mau melukismu
sesaat aku larikan pandanganku
engkau sudah berubah

siap sudah aku lukis kamu
kenapa kamu lebih cantik sekarang
aku mau lukis lagi
jangan bergerak

Dew

2009-03-25T14:35:00.001+08:00

dew meant the world to me
dew are the tiny voice calling out in my sleep
why am not strong
why am not worthy
but dew called out
still dew called out

Tanah airku berbilang sisa

2009-03-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

Jika takkan Melayu hilang didunia
takkan roboh Kota Melaka
Jika tanahnya milik kita
apa kata yang Maha Esa

Di tanah ini berbilang bangsa
tanahnya juga berbilang sisa
gugur lumat antara bumi
dari jawi sehingga rumi

Perlukah kita mendabik dada
meraikan peninggalan moyang dahulu
tanpa dikira relevannya kita
tanpa usaha tanpa fikiran

andai roboh juga kali kedua
andai hilang juga tutup kepala
andai sunyi nanti ketika senja
dabiklah hendaknya dada yang kosong

gentle raindrops

2009-03-23T13:50:00.000+08:00

i am wide awake tangled in my bed sheet

the gentle coldness grabs me tight

i heard the phone rang but i care less

because the gentle coldness holds me tight

... remedy~

... remedy~

... remedy for~

gentle rain drops in my heart

gentle rain drops in my heart

gentle rain drops in my heart

staying here im so alone

have you seen the way i am before

candy and coffee

2009-03-22T23:19:00.001+08:00

i eat candy
you drink coffee

cool

what it taste like?

i heard that it is bitter
then why put sugar in it?
you might as well eat candy

dont you know?
its way better having sweet and bitter
than staying sweet or bitter your whole life

dancing particles

2009-03-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

i see it quite everyday
more than ten times a day
sometimes fourteen
and rarely it comes to twenty

dancing... lead by the wind
thoughts disappear watching its wavy form
sometimes thoughts inflicted by its dreamy steps
deadly as many refer to it
but charming to some who share this fascination with me

empty silo

2009-03-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

is it by chance we're fond of each other
im pretty sure i am
will you see the colours inside
im just a character in a play

have you heard of the most beautiful words thrown
just for fun and not by heart
well it's a waste i should sing them to you
will you see the colours inside

we discussed of love and hate and interest
well was it just some of the few things we cared for
im sure it wasnt
will you see the colours inside

this is new..

hey

Dari belakang

Soal Langit

Pagar

Girl

i know you dont have to remind me

Meal

no title

JUAL MAHAL??? kenapa jual mahal amad emi? adakah sebab kita penah ada history dan aku telah set benchmark yg sgt tinggi lalu kau menjual mahal sekarang? hahaha wiu wiu wiu~

sape kawan sejati anda?hehehehe

mengarut tentang kekecewaan dalam bahase penjajah. haha bodo

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin coffee and cigarette and not talking

How to cry. shamelessly

tensen

Kamu tahu

Perempuan mcm mana awak suka? Yang lantang atau yang pendiam?

awak rasa best tak kalau saya mengorat awak? btw,saya model danau kota tersebut

Awak suka perempuan yang adventurous tak? Kalau ya, adventurous yg macam mana?

di mana cantiknya seorang perempuan?

awak rasa lelaki malaysia berkualiti?

Kenapa malu nak mengaku bila hati dah suka?

Do u believe in parallel universe? If yes, which one do you want to meet; Your child-self, teenage-self or older-self? What are you going to say if you meet one of them?

awak boleh tak kapel dengan kawan rapat awk sendiri? ke rasa pelik?

wat does a man sees n a girl? dia nampak perempuan tuh hidung mancung.bibir penuh. mata peghh mencairkan.. or trus je cari yg mmg cantik..s in..kurus,putih,and blablabla...

kenapa belum berpunya? memilih eh? ke menunggu? :D

dinosaur or mammoth?

You dengan Tini Rahim pernah ada sejarah kew? Rapat semacam jers...

would you like to be my friend...hahah..^^

awk da berpunya ke belum ?? :)

U suka baca blog siapa? Apa inspirasi u tulis lagu and puisi?

kau tulis lagu sebab trend sekarang semua nak tulis lagu sendiri atau kau memang tau direction kau dalam muzik?

fallen lines

1 tambah 1 tolak 1000 000.. berapakah anak itik di bawah rumah saya?

saya comey x? :P

gibberish

what kind of girl are you looking for?

formspring.me

the other

She's gone

Berkatalah saya

tiada tajuk

Just another doodle

Kentut

21 letters and goodbyes

sebenarnye

gadis yang tak wujud

Budak perasan

imaginary stick

Dear friends...

...

Saya budak perasan

Pusat

kucing, pungguk, pisang, dan buah pinang

Wasiat para penulis

Universal Balance

Umur tujuh tahun

The Last Bid

Ini betul-betul

Superficial me

Contrastive analysis

Kalau kau sama menanti

Hopes and Fears

Dilemma of a beloved

things cut short

Tawa, hati dan akal

Smells like thin seaweed

les miserables

I know you don't have to remind me

To my private doctor

Tidur mahu saya bangun

you're like crayons in my backpack

morning skies

sitting by the sump

Kissed

the sky kissed me tonightcountless timestiny kissesshe said tomorrow will be okayi gazed upon her she kissed me againtiny kisses

puisi carut

Ahmad Helmi Shaharuddin will smoke on a larger scale and swear as often as possible

Simpan

Langit

the sky kissed me tonight
countless times
tiny kisses

she said tomorrow will be okay
i gazed upon her she kissed me again
tiny kisses